Going to a Modest Mouse Concert would be my Ecstasy...

Weird I know, But the truth.

If I could die now Id be more than welcoming my homeland....

listening to Rush, Bush, Modest, and Pearl Jam, what else is Life....

And that I know is my mission to find out but thats me on my own living my life.

nothing more beside perhaps helping a couple people her and there with regresions, but other than that.... maybe reading about the universe.

Urika! Lauren is again in my Thought Bubble! DUH she once told me "Do what ever you would do as a hobbie and u shall be happy" ok not quite like that but sure ass hell close!

sounds like a real duh, but have I ever really even thought about what makes me happy...... :

Music!, ok but that idea was shot down because Im "too old to learn an intrustment"

Reading up the universe!, hey I can read, and proud of it! Hell i know its sad but...I dont have much else to be proud of...... yet thats shot down cause its just too damn hard

Helping people....its just what I do, in fact I feel very detached from it, because its not my problems, plus its just what I see.....it doesnt feel very special, even though I do truly know how much I am able to help them, but really what do I gain from it...i mean truly!...is that even too selfish too ask.. hell yes i do enjoy it, but its just soo little, i feel that im capable of...

Being Psychic, sure everyone wants to be, who the hell wouldnt.... had it but lost it because I was too lazy to keep it up...so hmmmm

DANCE! lol ellen! im so like her its scary, thats why mom thinks im gay.... But nope I do dance like ellen but its not half as entertaining when I do it...lol I just look like im faling off of an esculator at the near by mall... *sigh*

soooo why do they say Do What You Love.... Anyway! I mean Should we?? or should we just do what is "FIT" to us.

I mean, the life path we have promised to stay on and keep, should feel fit, no?

No, one said that was going to be entertaining, its HARD work! not play

 

Sometimes I think Id be more succesful being a comdeian. I have tons of materal, 19 years worth! but Ive always discredited acteresses since 8 years old anyway. Through I KNOW I could do it, maybe thats half the reason why I don't.